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Originally Posted by Centropolis
In my case, drinking has had three stages...
- when i was really young through college, i'd binge drink, then sometimes puke.
- later, i'd binge drink or not always binge drink, and hold it and myself together fine, hangovers not too bad.
- even later, i'd always binge drink and it would screw up my mood, and my guts could hold way too much more booze than my brain could handle, enter the bad place. i'd need to drink to handle the downward spiral of my moods, brought on by the binge drinking all the time. the hangovers are worse.
now, i lift weights (i despise running), don't drink anything in any amount for 4-5 day stretches, and my mood is much better. Fortunately i can still drink socially, and even binge drink with friends every once in a while (hey, im a midwesterner). It's not a party if it's everyday. If I get into a spiral of drinking, especially around st. pats and mardi gras, called the drinking season in st. louis, I usually don't drink for a month - the snowball effects heavy drinking has on my mood is worse than the hangovers.
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yeah see, i recognize that a lot.
with me, though, a lot of times, its hard because i'll just be really fucking lonely, and really bored, so instead of staying in (which if i'm alone i find to be hell, as tonight is), i go out and get wasted. i've been a lot more active, lately, too. just been a drunk month, really. friend came to visit over the 4th and we partied all the time, then it was supposed to be a slow week but my buddies girlfriend had a lingerie show at this club so we got shitfaced, then that weekend was just about the same. those wednesday night cruisers parties are always a shit show, and my birthday was a few wednesdays ago, too. of course, i got stood up and when i realized that, just completely got hammered.
basically, i've drank like a fucking fish since i got out of the military and my wife left. funny, too, i had just read some shit where the advice was (to a man whose wife had cheated on him) to get support, be around your friends who will listen, and that all of that is very important. funny, i had, literally, none of that.
i was gonna go drink tonight, but the girl who wanted to hang out and told me to text her when i got back downtown never fucking did, and i was just waiting for her to get back to me so i could shower up and head out (was playing in the rapids all day - worn out), so yeah, here i fucking am, la dee fucking da.